* this implies that you are trying to get over someone, and is not crazy that you stalk your ex, because if you're a stalker, then it's over that's why there's a restraining order against you! lol other than that...

When he/she doesn't call or pick up your phone calls?
- but what happens if he does? (given you weren't stalker status)

When he/she gets a girlfriend/boyfriend?
- but what if they break up?

When you get a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- but what if you two don't last?

When he/she gets married?
- but what if he decides to cheat on her, or the marriage didn't last?

When the feelings are gone?
- but when are they really gone?

When you can accept that you two will never get back together?
- but how do you know?

When you find the one that makes you forget about your ex?
- hopefully!

Aside from that when is it over??? people break-up and make-up all the time, and those who love set free, only to find that their true love comes back. so again when is it over? when you become a crazy stalker or find the real love of your life??? hmmm maybe?

i've never been so hung over with a guy...NEVER. I've crushed hard before when I was younger, and i've been heartbroken, but never like this. I feel like Bella in "New Moon" (and I absolutely hated that movie), I just feel absolutely sick all the time, I swear I see him everywhere, and the mere thought of him makes me dizzy. I think i've lost my mind. Plus the fact that alla this is sssooo out of character that it makes me feel stupid for being so overly dramatic when it comes to him, it's so ridiculous and I can't help it, I try to breathe and calm down but it doesn't work. I thought being over 100 miles away i'd be able to get over it, but I be missing him even more.

Ugh! So not too long after I wrote my May 3rd post, Nic texted me. We had a good conversation and made plans to see each other when I was home for summer vacation. We met up and it was absolutely awful! To this day I cannot believe how bad the night went, so I figured I let it go...i tried to let it go, I didn't expect him to want to see me after that night anyway. But my friends told me to see him again and that it wasn't a big deal..so, I texted him and we made plans to see each other again..BIG MISTAKE..THAT NIGHT was even worst! we just sat there. he tried to hold me but I gave him a cold shoulder, I tried to chop it up with him but he was silent. I started to wonder how we were the best of friends before, and finally realized how different we had actually grown to be.

so as the night dragged on and he left me to sleep in the bedroom, I texted him how I felt since obviously I cannot do it in person (it was 2 text pages long btw), an let myself out. I was sad, but relieved that atleast it's all over and we can go on with our lives, but I don't know if i'm just relapsing but this feels all wrong, I want to restart like I can in a video game. too bad life ain't like that, there's no going back...

I hate feeling like Bella